Yup, that's right Attention Deficit Hyperactivity Disorder. I have known I've had it since I was very young but only now do I realize the havoc it has wreaked on my life, every single part of it.
I have a hot temper which gets set off very quick.
I speak/act before I think.
I overreact to things said to me and actions of others.
When I leave a social situation I beat myself up for possibly sounding stupid or acting a certain way.
I can't finish projects I start (I have 6 crochet projects going on right now...).
It feels like there's about 10 things going on in my head at once. (Which is why I get overwhelmed with noise easily.)
I can NEVER sit still.
I talk a lot. A LOT.
I have to do at least two things at once most hours of the day.
And as an adult I have to have things scheduled, organized, and planned to death, just to feel like I have some sort of control. (Which also explains why I have to have my way all the time, which makes me look like a controlling wife)
All this explains soo much! It explains why when Mike and I have an argument I seem to only make things worse, and I overreact, and just why we butt heads to begin with.
All of this makes me feel incredibly crazy. Like I might go off the deep-end crazy. But I know I can control it, and without medication. I know because I know I'm strong enough, that and there are people around me who can help and support me.
So if any of this sounds like you, it might be worth looking in to. Just know you're NOT crazy. This is a daily struggle for me and at times I can feel very anxious and even depressed which explains some of my posts here and on Facebook. But here are some sites for help.
http://psychcentral.com/addquiz.htm
http://www.adult-adhd.com/
You missed listing the good, nah great points:
ReplyDelete*Big picture oriented - Can see how everything is connected - a useful tool in work, home, and relationships.
*Able understanding people better. More empathic to their pain and their joys.
*Makes you a perfect candidate for owning your own business.
*A trend setter - no, really!
*A risk taker - yes, this can be a good thing once you understand how to use it TO your advantage.
*Able to leap small buildings in a single bound! (ok maybe not that but there is so much more)
:-)
Aww well thank you! I did forget the positives! It's easy to do when your in the midst of the negative side...But thanks for reminding me! :)
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